I think I’m bored. Hmmm….bored? Really? Nah not bored, unchallenged. Too in my comfort zone for life to feel quite right. Wow how curious is this? I’d think the comfort zone is a great place to hang out. Seems not.
We really are nomads in our psychological lives. We’re always changing and moving on from what we believe and know now. We’re all Bedoiuns at heart ;)
I read a post this afternoon by Kayla Cruz about this very thing. I love the comment we’re not trees, we can change anything.
I can tell I’m ready to change something again. I’m a bit restless, and things which seemed hard and stressful a week ago, seem easier now. I’ve totally relaxed into this zone. I’ve been having a period of chilled-out-ness (and yep I made the word up :) which felt pretty good but now I’m ready to go again.
Ooops and then I thought go where? Now there’s a trap for young players. It doesn’t matter where I end up so much as being ready to follow whatever comes up. I know something feels ready to be handed over to the past but I’ve no idea how to achieve the change.
Not that I need to know how.
I used to be all about how but how is all about one possibility. It’s way too limited a way of looking at the world. Limited not only by the hope for one predetermined (by me) outcome, but limited by the imagination of my human brain.
Fearful thinking needs to know how. Trust doesn’t.
I’m a massive fan of the idea of ‘this or something better’. I heard a meditation teacher say it once and I hear it resonate around the web too. It allows for possibilities and reminds me the how is incidental. So often something more amazing than we imagine materialises. It doesn’t necessarily have to feel full of joy to begin with, though it does an awful lot, but in the end it’s the better than you could have imagined.
Perhaps it’s like when people say they love their partner more than they thought possible. Love better than you ever imagined? Now there’s a possibility none of us would choose to limit.
We’re mad to consciously discount the myriad of ways something can potentially come to us. It was pure muppet thinking by this little one.
I’m intrigued to see what this change is about. Something’s up but I’m
not yet sure what. I think I’m about to find out….awesome.